I was going to write about Reedy Race 3rd-6th today, but then something happend. It happens so rarely that I just have to document this moment. In times of mental weakness, I will be able to look back at this post, and stop feeling sorry for myself.
I’m out here in Phoenix Arizona for some testing, pre-DNC, and of course, you guessed, it Supercross. I’m in my shitty Motel 6 room, working on my car, and I’m almost done, so I stand up, I do what all RC racers do, I work the shocks, and for a fraction of a second I remember how when I first discovered RC cars, I was so amazed at the suspension. I immediately think:
“Wait a minute, back then it was a Kyosho Mp6, this is my car. WTF? Wait a minute, I made this car, this is MY car. How did I manage to make my own car? I’m a fucking village idiot from Finland? Oh man, I need to focus, this is kind of cool, I have my own RC car.”
I swear that’s what went through my mind in a fraction of a second. I had an epiphany I guess. Hey I did this! Somehow when you live it, you don’t even realise what’s going on. It happens so gradually. I wish I could feel special all the time, but I don’t, I feel like just another idiot, trying to do something cool. Last time it happened it was when I was staring at Cody King’s paint job on a Kyosho box, and caught myself thinking “That’s pretty cool, he got his paint job on the box.”, until I realised, so did I, and it’s my car!
It’s moments like these that help motivate me. I have worked so hard, for so many years, and most of the time I just feel like I’m not getting anywhere. But these brief moments, I get a glimpse of success, and it just fills those batteries up with 1000amps. I’m going to make it, no matter what the haters say. One day the JQ car will win.
If you didn’t know it before, now you now, I’m unfortunately completely nuts. Well, we can’t have everything I guess 🙂