One thing I have heard from a few people recently, is how there is this notion among some people in the industry, people in the know, that it’s completely amazing that JQRacing is still around. They expected me to fail a long time ago, can’t believe I am still here, and now think that this definitely has to be my last year.
I can see where they are coming from. Far larger companies than mine, with deeper pockets, more experience, probably more sense, and definitely more staff have come and gone. My public persona is something of a village idiot, some crazy guy from Finland running around the world like a headless chicken pissing half the world off, and creating passionate followers of the other half. Well, some part of it anyway :-). I get where they are coming from. It doesn’t look like there is any way I could run a business, at least not for very long, or successfully in any way.
But there is method to my madness. I think that there are very few people in the world who truly know me. It’s like I live in this box and I don’t like letting anyone in, but once in a while someone buys some scissors, cuts a hole and punches me in the kidney, and says “What’s up fool?”. I mean I had already had a girlfriend for a few years when some of my what I would class as real world friends (not facebook) didn’t even know, and when hearing about it could not believe it. They thought I was for sure too messed up to ever have a girlfriend, or that I was gay. Then when I said, yes, I live with her, she has two kids, they pretty much just had a brain meltdown. WTFaaahhhhh? YOU are a step dad?
So what I am saying is, that I know it looks crazy, but JQRacing isn’t here because of luck, or chance. It’s actually not bigger than it is, because of some very bad luck, and a couple bad choices. What I am saying is, that JQRacing is here because I think about what I do, from all angles I can, I speak with some others about it, I make a plan, and then at some point I got “fuck it”, and I just wing it. I do whatever it is that needs to be done, and I do it until it is done. I’m not afraid to get up at 7:30 and go to bet at 2:30 because I need to get something done. I don’t blog about updating the web shop or doing price lists, or working with vendors or customers, or about book keeping or paying bills, because that’s boring, but it’s not like I don’t do it. This has to do with something I wrote about before, the grass is always greener on the other side.
It looks like I just go to the RC track and mess around, I never work and I don’t have a “real job”, and that’s fine that people think that. But if I only did that, I wouldn’t be here anymore, and that’s what these industry people are missing. They go home to their families. I go home to work, because they have made it in their minds, and I have not. One day I will have made it too, and that’s when I will go home to my family.