Internet is a bit slow here, somewhere outside of Stuttgart Germany. Tomorrow we visit LRP on our drive home. But a few thoughts from today’s drive.
12 hours on the road today, and I have to say I am most certainly somewhat insane. But what struck me today was how at the lowest point, the point where I think fuck this why even bother, everything sucks, I try so hard, I have no money, I don’t even have a home, or a family, or anything normal, and I’m failing, at that point, instead of driving off a cliff, I suddenly have an idea, and that idea lights a flame, and that flame excites me. BOOM, I’m back. I now know why I sucked, and how I can suck less next time. I know what to do next in order to improve the car, and I know what to do to improve the company. I make a road map and a plan for the future, and begin structuring my world take over once again in my head.
I am insane, but the sort of insane that one day might hit the jackpot. Because there is method to my madness, and I never stop moving forward. My company has been here for 6 and a half years now, and every year we have improved everything except sales. That sucks for me, but one day that will improve too.
Sometimes I wonder, if the place of your dreams is overcrowded should you dream another dream?